Ok, when i started talking to you, we were both in a similiar place, so new out of relationships, and not lookin for another one.  And although i can only speak for myself, the moment i laid eyes on you, i wanted you.  At first it was a lust thing, but the more we hung out, i just couldnt stop thinking about you...you are just amazing and incredible and i was quickly caught off guard by the feelings i was getting for you.  Everything was awesome, we got along so great, such a connection and chemistry...then the whole pregnancy thing happened.  Which i will never a day in my life regret or resent, but as we know, very unplanned...And i think we never got down to business and laid out the expectations for each other after that point.  All i expect from you is to keep in contact with me...even if its every other day, a 5 minute phone call "How are things? Is everything OK?" etc...or if you cant handle that, at least if i email you or message you saying its important, for you to just set aside a minute to find out whats up.  I know you got shit goin on with your family right now, and i would never ask you to choose me over your family, but its also not fair to neglect my needs 100% of the time...Im sure you had a free minute, you couldve called me, messaged me, went to a payphone, anything...and thats what i want you to see, is that im not trying to tie you down, or make you choose me over anyone else...all i want is you to show you care what happens to me and this baby.  And when i talk to you about it, it seems like youre so into it, and into me...but then the next day, its like you did a 180, and you dont fill me in as to whats going on...i know i dont know your family that well, but if your sister is sick, or whatever, id like to know too...i know how important she is to you, and not that i have the "right" to know, but id like to think you know i care about your family too.  Wouldnt you like to know if Joe was sick? even if its just so you can send a get well wish to him? So i guess i just am confused by your seemingly lack of concern one day, and being so into it the next. I love you, a lot..and i dont want something as stupid as constant miscommunication to cause failure of you and me.  Maybe if we sit down, and talk about what i expect from you, and what you expect from me, and actually both try to live up to our expectations we could have back that constant happiness we had before.  Im so willing to put 110% into this, ive never met anyone like you, and it would tear me up to lose you now...over this shit...shit that is so unimportant, yet turns into such a big deal..I deserve you to be more available, you deserve me not jumpin on your case all the time, and this baby deserves us doing that for eachother.  Im so sorry for the things i said to you...you didnt deserve that, and i am NOT trying to make any excuse for what i did, i acknowledge i was wrong, but like i said before, my hormones are going freakin nuts, im under so much stress between the car being sold without my permission, to maybe losing this new job i got, to having less than a week now to find a new place to live without jepordizing my plan to buy a house, and its hard too, cuz i dont wanna wind up movin far away from you, i want you to be able to see my belly grow, and feel the baby kickin, and come to my dr appts with me...but when you just refuse to make any contact with me, i dont know what youre doin...are you just busy? are you giving up on me? should i try and find a way to stay around here? should i just go if youre giving up? I dont want to make that decision alone, i want you to be a part of it..but youre not givin me that right now.  So, i think we just need to talk about some things..Anyways, i hope you read all that, and were able to follow it...i love you, i miss you, i want you, and i need you...